New Beginnings at B-Hotel

And so our Day One began....

A little history... Before all of my stupidity happened, you were so kind-hearted to actually offer for us to to spend a staycation in one of the hotels in the area. You were so guilty of leaving me for a month and then coming home and leave again after 5 days for another week of vacation with your family. And I thank you for being wise and mature enough not to cancel it when I asked of your plans for it while you were still in the US.

We met at Nathaniels and went to B-Hotel to check in. As always, you let me do the checking-in. We were given Room 1116. It was a nice room and better than Azumi hotel. We were given a king sized bed; and it was too big for us since we were only occupying half of it. Downside, we did not have that much view but that of Alabang Hills, Tierra Nueva and of course, SM Southmall from far away.

The whole afternoon was spent with just talking and conversing on what happened to us. We discussed all possibilities that can happen to us. Your fears and worries, my promises and commitments. There were a lot to talk about especially that we have been away from each other for a month. A lot to tell on what happened to you in the US and how I succumbed to my guilt and regrets for the entire month of September.

Since you still had jet lag and you cannot adjust to your old sleeping habits, you asked if we can take an afternoon nap. You slept at 4pm, and I just watched you sleep. That was when I realized that this was the person I loved and how really lucky I am to have you as my partner. Then, I followed afterwards. We were too sleepy I guess that we woke up at 8PM already. And then, we talked again as if there is no more tomorrow until we realized that it was past 10PM already and we have not had dinner yet.

Good thing, there were fastfood restos open 24 hours nearby and since you were craving for Sisig. We ended up eating at Mang Inasal. So we had a lot, you had your sisig, I had my pecho, and we both had a bbq. Then, it was as if that meat is not enough, and so we had 2 huge servings of rice. It has been a while since we enjoyed food together besides it is one of those things that we love to do.


We went back to the hotel, crawled on to the bed and talked again just about anything until we were sleepy again. I dont know why but I woke up after 3 hours after, just an hout ahead of you. Since 6AM until 8AM, we just spent our entire morning in beg, having our sweet talks. That one month space and my stupidity really gave us a lot to talk and catch up for. Just before we were about to have a breakfast, I found out that we have an issue at work. It was a working breakfast for us and good thing just after appetizer, the issue was resolved.

Upon returning to the room, we asked if they allow late check-out and we were allowed to stay for another hour. Oh,and yeah, guess what we did. We just re-bonded and talked about our issue, on what we can expect and what we can do about them. But in all these talks, I never stopped apologizing for what I did. I could not stand what you will be going through in the next few weeks, months or even years. Only thing I can do is to make things right for you and not to add to the stress that you could possibly get from your family and friends pressuring you and challenging your decision.

We went to Alabang Town Center after dropping Xtian off at Pacific Shell. After roaming around Town Center and late light lunch at KFC, we stayed in the VIPinoy Center just to while our time away. We decided to go home before 5PM before we fell asleep in the cozy couch at the lounge. I brought my dinner and we walked to the parking. I got my things and just after we bade goodbye something first happened..... I kissed you in the lips in a public area. I think you were caught off guard. But I had the guts to do it, because I almost lost you once without even having to experience that, and I will not let that happen again... So, expect a lot of firsts on our second chance of love....

Back to Square One

And so... This was the day that I dreaded the most... the day when I get to see you after 32 days... the day when I get to hear your questions and thoughts on what happened... the day when I get to try to make my plead... the day when I would have your decision, if you are willing to give us another try...

It was 530PM when I arrived at Alabang Town Center. I made sure that I will have water with me, kasi alam kong madugong iyakan ang mangyayari. I went straight to Healthway; the doors to your clinic was closed and so I assumed you had a patient. I asked the receptionist and she went to ask you... When you went outside your clinic, I just did not know how to react. I was there sitting in one of those benches, parang batang napagalitan, walang imik, walang kibo. I waited for you until you finish your last patient. Then, we went to your car and there, we talked...


I cannot recall anymore how our conversation started. But if there are two things that I realized in our
conversation, it would be that I realized how mature and a very kind-hearted person you are. You knew that between the two of us, you would still need to be the mature person. How lucky I am to have a partner like you, kasi ang bait bait mo sobra. Realizations were brought up, apologies were made, forgiveness were given, requests were asked, and promises were committed. I am just so blessed to have you as a partner. But more than blessed that you are willing to give us another chance.


I know it will really be difficult for both of us. You having stressed by the people around you, telling you how stupid of you to come back to me, and I would have to live with your possible paranoia in the future. We still have to pick up the pieces, but slowly I know we will be back where we left off before my stupidity happened.

This was a very humbling experience. I have realized what I still lack in maturity and in emotional stability. I promise that this time I will always have you in my mind and will put you first as top priority in all that I do. I would not want to lose you ever again.

It is back to square one for us again. And this time, I will make sure to make everything right.

Chat and Chow at ChowKing

October 10 - And you were still having the hangover of the three red roses... I know in a way, I softened your heart and I requested for a TRO on your bill regarding our meet ups. But it was more than the three red roses, you agreed for us to meet because we did not have food at home for dinner, and I was going to PureGold Molito area to eat. This was our 4th meetup already...

I decided to have dinner at ChowKing; I bought heavy meal for myself and you had halo halo for dessert. And then we had our usual chat and discussion on anything under the sun. Then, I had to go home already because of my shift. I accompanied you to your car and just before we parted ways, we hugged each other.

But I thank you, because I know that I can always count on you. I needed somebody to accompany for dinner, and you made yourself available. And I know that should you become my partner, I do not have to worry of being alone because I know that you will always be there.

Three Red Roses

It was a nice Tuesday morning, and I had something up my sleeves... It was a good thing that I reported for work last October 8 and I wanted to surprise you with something on that day.

I know that even with the bill passed that you did not want us to see until I fixed my issue, I wanted to give you something and hopefully, make you happy. It was this day that I waited for you at your bakery and gave you three red roses. I knew it was not that special but that's what I can come up with during that early morning at Alabang.

But your reaction when you received it was priceless, I knew that with that smile, I made a difference on your day. And you cannot help keep that smile the whole day... Success!!!

To Bill or Not to Bill

And because of the not-so ideal setup we had, you passed on this bill for us not to see each other first until I fix my issue with my then current relationship. So, it has been days since we last met and it was not easy for me. It was not easy for me every time you will inform me that you were going out with other guys and have coffee, dinner or beer. I knew then that I never had the right to stop you, but that was just the circumstance and I had to accept it. As much as I wanted to stop you from seeing new guys, I could not because I did not want to be unfair with you.



It was the most dreadful days, because I know what I had to do, but I just could not because I was really clueless on what I have to do. That is, until October 5. Something happened which made me decide that I would need to act on it already soon even before I lost you.

A freaky Friday indeed; a very emotional one at that... It was the same Friday that I followed you at Pure Gold Molito area while you were having a dessert/coffee with some other guy. But I was not able to catch you then, and so I had dinner on my own and you wanted to follow me because I needed someone to talk to. But we decided not to because it was too late already and I had to go to a friend who needed my help then.

And yet again, you proved to me that if I needed you, you are the type who will drop anything just to be there for someone who needs your help. More pogi points? Or more reason for me to love you even more?...

Seconds at Stackers

It was only three days since we first met and yet, we wanted to see each other already. It was a Wednesday and good thing I had to attend a conference call at VIPinoy Lounge, which gave us an opportunity to meet once again.


And so, I met you after my meeting; but I had to do some groceries first at Gaisano Supermarket. And it was so thoughtful of you to offer help me carry the stuff I bought; you were willing to share the burden of carrying that one bag. And that was so sweet of you. I knew that you were indeed a partner material; if you are willing to share the burden in small things, how much more if it is a more serious one. How I wish really then that you can be my partner...



We had dinner at Stackers, You had their fish and chips and chicken, and I only had salad. That was when I know that we will jive together when it comes to food. And this was when you first told me that you have accepted our situation even if it was not the most ideal one. Though every moment is a time well spent since we have gotten to know each other better, but deep inside we both now that there is still something lacking. We could not enjoy the moment fully

Since I still had to work at home, we went home and you wanted to bring me to the terminal. While in your car, we both know that there was this urge to kiss or hug or even hold each other's hands the least, but we still could not. It seems like there was this wall between us, stopping us from really expressing our feelings towards each other.

And It Started When...

It was September 28 when I first sent you a message; complimenting you that your body did not look your age and then you said thanks... and the rest is history... Since that day, we have been chatting and exchanging messages, but neither of us requested for a face-pic of each other...  And yet, we were interested with each other, or the least, I was with you, but you were just being polite or better yet, you did not have nothing much to do, that's why you entertained me. but nevertheless, I did not mind it...

Though all the while we were chatting, you did not know that I was hiding something because I did not want to share it with you over chat, and I wanted to let you know of my secret once we meet in person... We kept in touch until September 30 came... (Oh, it was just two days after, hehe...)

It was a Sunday, and I informed you that I will be hearing mass at St Jerome. You asked me if I needed company and I said yes. We can have dinner together and coffee afterwards... I was not able to make the 4PM mass; that's why I attended the 530PM mass. But because the church was celebrating something, that the mass ended at 7PM already. And you were already in ATC just passing the time by at national bookstore... You told me that you were wearing pink shirt and white shorts... and when I saw you at the bookstore, i was like "What the f***, he seems too out for my taste. but what the heck, I am already here..."... And I was even shy to approach you, just texted you where I was standing from and you approached me. But you cannot hide the smile in your face when you saw me (the reason I found out a few dates after..)

We had dinner at Shi Lin, because I knew that you like chinese food. Well, the usual thing happened.. we gotten to know each other, we shared info about ourselves and told stories about our families and lives... And as we continue to open our lives to each other, we kinda had that idea that we are both ideal partners for each other... until you asked me that one dreaded question that I was trying to avoid... "You are single, right?... " And I could not answer you straightforward... But I wanted to be honest with you, I told you the truth about me; that I was still committed but was having issues with my current relationship then. I was afraid that you wanted to go home right away after you found out about it. But you were civil, and you stayed and we even had coffee at Bizu... I dont know what made you stay, but I was happy you did... Because I know that you were the one I wanted to spend my lifetime with no matter what...

Then just before Cinderella's curfew time, we decided to go home. I even went with you in your car because you wanted to drop me off along Alabang Zapote road. All the while in your car, I knew you wanted to hold me or kiss me but you know you could not. But what strike me most was when you told me, "You are almost okay, the entire package is okay, with a little miss..." I was happy with that thought, that with very little hope, I know deep inside that I had a chance with you, that is, only if I am free.

But I know we were at a good start... our attraction with each other was not based on physical traits alone... i liked your maturity and you liked mine... you prefer someone with a stable income, and so was I... we did not know how we look like until we met each other... we both saw that we can get old with each other... and most especially, ours started, though in rough waters, with honesty; which I believe is one basic foundation in a relationship...